Current Addictions

currently addicted to these 3 songs....such nice songs...with such strong n meaningful lyrics...especially to me...especially now...

Yellowcard Lyrics




Sofia Loell - Utopia Lyrics




Simple Plan When I'm Gone Lyrics

1 Year and Counting

the past few weeks have been busy as hell...the sem is flying by sooooo damn fast...every week now is filled wv midsem tests n assignments...

but the past few days have been good...a lot of drinking...a lot of bonding...a lot of showing my true colours...n a lot of revelations...things i hv forgotten...things dat slowly remind me of who i am n y certain things are the way they are...

revelation/remembrance no.1
i can not have a girlfriend...its impossible...because no girl will truly understand my brotherhood...n even if she did...she would not b able to accept it...not the lengths to which i go for my brothers...only they noe it...

revelation/remebrance no.2
brothers are brothers for a reason...the blood in our veins mayb different...but the bond is the same....regardless wut happens...ups n downs will always be there...u'll be fine one day...u'll fight the next...u'll wanna whack d shit out of each other...u hurt one another...but at the end of the day...u talk it out...u think it through...n nth can break the bond...

revelation/remembrance no.3
i m not a trusting person...i trust my family n my brothers completely...but i dun trust any1 else with them...n cz they r my brothers...i will say things that need to be said...if it hurts them..its hurting me too...but it needs to be said...

if u r not my family...u will not understand....but i swear to god...i wan nth but their happiness...even if the price of that is my life or my time in hell...i would gladly pay it....n if u ever hurt any of my brothers...be prepared...cz not even god himself can save u from me...

today actually marks me having this blog for 1 whole year...have nvr managed to keep a blog updated frequently enough or for long enough a period to actually reach this moment...so yeah...its great i finally kept an active blog open for a year....below are sum of the more memorable posts from the past year...hehe

Off Loyalties, Trust and True Friends
To My Angels
The Line Went Dead
The Price Of Loyalty
History Repeats Itself
My Take On Heaven and Hell
Guys Are Pathetic
A Haunting
Slipping
Penang and a Clearer Head

yup...all very memorable...some with very funny comments...hehe...neways...thats all for now....ciaoz...

A Good Start

well...its only been 1 week....but its been a really great week.....

monday was new years eve...which was ablast by itself...all d gang got together in our apt n got pissed drunk n ushered in d new year...and the chinese new year as well....although its still a month away....lol...

wednesday we went to murni...jst ruben,varun,jim n me....all d brothers back together...it feels like home...too long away from them....it jst din feel rite...being together again...its like a reassurance...that no matter wut shit comes this year...they got my back...through all d thick n the thin...

thursday was our 1st aiesec episode...which was absolutely a blast....for d 1st time...i saw n felt...there was no senior aiesecers n no junior aiesecers...it was jst a whole group of aiesecers....the spirit...the togetherness...it was amazing...n dat obviously lead to another great murni yumcha session after episode....for that..THANKS GOAY!!!u mage it possible...:D

then yest we got together...n we went for basketball...jst a few of us...lydia,listya,goay,foocheong,ruben,joshua n me...we played d longest round of basketball we have ever played...it was really a lot of fun...of course today my muscles hurt like hell...but still...it was fun...mite do it again nxt week...:D

overall...it was really great week...n a wonderful start to d new year....so hopefully d rest of d year follows the same trend...:D

A New Year, A New Beginning?

so 2007 is finally over....along with it came many many memories...n many many good times...

---> getting piss drunk on jims bday
---> all d 7 indians n 1 "indian" guys in d apt d whole nite looong drinking with no inhibitations
---> going for MT interviews stoned
---> all the laughter
---> all the friends
---> natcon
---> kuala selangor
---> birthday celebrations

n along with many many many more trials n tribulations....whatever doesnt kill u only makes u stronger rite?but being on d brink of death n coming bk time n time again is getting very tiring....n its slowly wearing me out...

my results sucked big time this past sem....dropped from 4.0 gpa to 2.94 gpa....cgpa from3.99 to 3.78....

my love life sucks....i tried for 1 punjabi n failed...i tried for a chinese a girl n failed...i tried for another chinese girl n failed again...i tried for d SAME girl (i noe...idiocy) again n guess wut?? I FAILED AGAIN!

i lost a long standing friendship...but that was the price to pay...it was a last resort...i din noe how else to help already....

i learnt that just because u dont like to play politics...doesnt mean u can get away without playing any...sad as it is...

i learnt that betrayal is soooo much easier to come by these days even by those u trust or want to call ur friend than true courage to stick by u n tell u to ur face wut is wrong is to come by...

they say keep ur frens close n ur enemies closer...i say keep ur family n ur "family" close...let the rest of the world burn...n choose ur "family" wisely for it reflects on u...

its been a looong year...n i can only hope that this year is much much better...


a new year...a new sem...a new beginning....but it still d same old emo fool here at Resurrection...

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008 EVERYONE!!!

Penang Again and a Clearer Head

so i went to penang again for the weekend....was invited by rene to watch d meteor shower...decided to go...what the hell rite?i din have nething to do in ipoh anyway...

so 1stly...d meteor shower din really work out...there was too much cloud cover (thanx to sum1 i shall not name here but u noe who u r..:P)...but other than that...it was a great trip...penang as usual offered loads of good food...n with rene has host..u cant really go wrong...he knows all the best places...so we basicly spent the whole 2 days plus eating n driving arnd looking for more places to eat...of course....we also spent a huge portion of our time poking goay n lengz...IN A TOTALLY INNOCENT N NON-SEXUAL WAY!!!!i noe most of u noe me too welll n will automatically associate poking with smth dirty...lol..but overall...it was a really great trip...thanx to all that were there that made it great...rene....bee chin...goay...n of course lengz...:D

now abt a d clearer head...had a talk with her abt y things happened the way they did....y she said certain things that gave me hope...n there was a lot of apology going on as well....me apologizing for fucking things up...she apologizing if she had confused me or given me the wrong signals...it basicly ended up with her leaving things up to me...saying that if i wanted her to stay away, she would...n if i could handle being jst friends...that would work for her too....honestly...i have no idea where i stand...part of me says i can stomach being jst her friend...but d other part of me jst crumbles every time i see her or talk to her...

but wut i do noe is this...i aint changing...the year is coming to an end...n i've learnt this year that im happy with who i am...n if that means i meant to be jst a friend to all the girls...then so be it...i aint changing jst to get a girl...n for now...its pretty obvious i aint getting one...im too choosy for my own good...

d majority of my race r either toooo down to earth n go to temple every week or have their noses waaaayyyy high in the air...none of them have a sense of humour that can really make me laugh....n the only girls that do fulfill this smallest of criterias are all not of my race...n all only think of me as a friend...so be it...so for now...

i've cut my heart out n dipped it in liquid nitrogen so that it is frozen....encased it in reinforced granite....locked it a titanium impenetrable safe...thrown d safe to d deepest darkest corner of my soul...n destroyed d key to d safe...so that it cant be mysteriously found by sum random person...but instead d person who really is supposed to have my heart will have to forge a new key to pry my heart out of its hiding place...

i wish dat person all d luck in the world....but until she comes along...im free...im gonna do wut i want...i gonna flirt with anyone n everyone....n i dun care abt the consequences anymore...i've been hurt enough jst cz i was being d nice guy....now im done being the nice guy....so if ur flirting with me...be warned...if u get burned...it aint my problem....