To Ma Hommies

now i noe dis is actually a love song lah...but sumhow when i hear it...i think of aaron singh...of ruben...of jim...of varun...of michelle...of ferdy...so d nxt time u ppl hear dis song...u noe im thinking of u...:D

"Here By Me"

I hope you’re doing fine out there without me
‘Cause I’m not doing so good without you
The things I thought you’d never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood

So how could I have been so blind for all these years?
Guess I only see the truth through all this fear,
And living without you…

And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

I can’t take another day without you
‘Cause baby, I could never make it on my own
I’ve been waiting so long, just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong

Sorry I can’t always find the words to say
But everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love…

And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

As the days grow long I see
That time is standing still for me
When you’re not here

Sorry I can’t always find the words to say
Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me

love u guys man...really do from d bottom of my heart...thanx for everything ppl...

Gloomy Day

dats pretty much wut it looks like outside my window....d gloominess i mean...sigh...its such a gloomy day....n its making me even gloomier...so lazy to do my work...its d kinda day u jst wanna curl up n bed n stay there....

but i cant...got exam on fri n sat....n today is tues....fri paper 90% done already so thats all good...

but sats paper...basic electronics....oh my god...so many things....this current n that voltage...wut in gods green earth possessed me to take this subject??learning abt current saturation till even my brain got saturated..sigh...

i hate gloomy days....i hate exams....i hate slumps....i hate that my friends have problems n i cant help them....its jst a gloomy day making me hate everything from the dark clouds to where i m in my life rite now...

did i mention i hate gloomy days??

Half Time

WOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!yes...im a happy happy camper....well...at least i will b until tmr morn when i wake up n realize i pissed away 2 days that could have been used to study for my exams that r at d end of dis week...

but neway..i finished 2 of d 5 papers on fri...my worst paper was statistical computing...m pretty sure i shall b able to pass with more than a C...which means ill nvr have to sit for it again or look at java programming in my life again....hence d happiness...:D

so jon was down for the weekend...i havent actually sat down n talked wv him since dec 2004...yeah...that long...he was my head boy bk when i was in form6...he was in a upper 6 while i was in lower 6...but we clicked jst fine...n he stayed real close to me..so he was down...n we went for a movie with him...now..even jst putting varun, jon, mich and I together like dat is already a recipe for laughter...but putting us in a comedy show like wild hogs that was laden with double meanings all over the place....now dats jst god having too much fun....the movie was great...worth every penny...n i had an amazing time wv jon n varun n mich n lay geen n nick n goay...although nick was very blur...but its all good...we still love u nick...n at d end of d nite...i had a tummy ache cz of all dat laughter....dats how much we laughed...:D

ended up coming home at 430am...then yest went for lunch n then to a tattoo shop...nope...din get it done...yet...but found out its gonna cost me an easy rm300-500..on the other hand..bro invited me to go thailand with his frens at d end of june...so mite jst get it done there...since its much cheaper there...

wut else is there...having a slight case of split personality today...the bloody devil in me has been kept under lock n bars for abit too long n is revolting...he wants to come out n play...n with all the things my mind has gone through lately...its a little weak...n d devil is wasting no time in trying to get out...but im still sane...i think...lol...

well...thats all for now...b good...take care...n shall b bk when i have smth to blog abt...lol

Memories

ever wake up one morning n sud feel ur whole life press upon u like a giant wave....all the memories....all the sweet moments...all the sadness....the pain....everything....like a torrent of emotions...a giant wave...n u dun noe if u shud b happy or sad...

ur mood fluctuates so fast its not funny....1 sec a happy memory comes n ur on top of d world...d nxt a painful memory comes n ur fighting bk d tears...yes...to those of u who think u noe me...there r tears in my past...n there is pain as well...despite the happy-go-lucky person u c walking down the street...but i keep it all locked inside n hidden away...

until 1 fine day...like today...the dam jst breaks....n everything is let out....so i slowly push everything bk into the deepest corners n start to build up d damn...leaving out only the happy memories...n hope to collect more happy memories...so that the next time d damn breaks....mayb...jst mayb...ill have more happy thoughts then painful thoughts...

a friends blog mentioned abt "when was the last time i was happy"...not to me personally...but jst generally...n its true...i cant pin point a specific time frame....but there r many moments of happiness...such as when im out with the guys jst chillin....when i help a fren througha difficult time...when everyone is together n enjoying themselves...

life is not defined by the number of breaths u take my dear friend...it is defined by the number of moments that take ur breath away...n thanks to u...n many others...im blessed in those moments....n i gain more n more of those moments every day...

Music With Powerful Lyrics

2 songs i'm kinda addicted to rite now...really like them not only cz of d tune but also cz d lyrics r really nice,powerful n meaningful...

d 1st is Linkin Park - What I've Done

In this farewell,
There is no blood,
There is no alibi,
Cause I’ve drawn regret,
From the truth,
Of a thousands lies,
So let mercy come and wash away…

What I’ve Done,
I’ll face myself,
To cross out what I’ve become,
Erase myself,
And let go of what I’ve done…

Put to rest,
What you thought of me
While, I clean this slate,
With the hands,
Of uncertainty,
So let mercy come,
And wash away…

What I’ve Done,
I’ll face myself,
To cross out what I’ve become,
Erase myself,
And let go of what I’ve done…

For what I’ve done,
I start again,
And whatever pain may come,
Today this ends,
I’m forgiving what I’ve done…

I’ll face myself,
To cross out what I’ve become,
Erase myself,
And let go of what I’ve done…

(Na,Na,Na) [Mike Shinoda!]

What I’ve Done,
What I’ve Done,
Forgiving what I’ve done…

and d 2nd is Good Charlotte - The River

As I walk through the valley
of the shadow of LA
The footsteps that were next to me
have gone their separate ways
I've seen enough now
to know that beautiful things
don't always stay that way
I've done enough now
to know this beautiful place
isn't everything they say

I heard that evil comes disguised
Like a city of angels
I'm walking towards the light

Baptized in the river
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered
In the city was a sinner
I've done a lot of things wrong
But I swear I'm a believer
Like the prodigal son
I was out on my own
Now I'm trying to find my way back home
Baptized in the river
I'm delivered
I'm delivered

[M.Shadows:]
You're from a small town
You're gonna grow up fast
underneath these lights
Down in Hollywood
on the boulevard the dead come back to life
To the praying Mother
And the worried Father
Let your children go
If they come back
They'll come home stronger
And if they don't you'll know

They say that evil comes disguised
Like a city of angels
I'm walking towards the light

Baptized in the river
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered
In the city was a sinner
I've done a lot of things wrong
But I swear I'm a believer
Like the prodigal son
I was out on my own
Now I'm trying to find my way back home
Baptized in the river
I'm delivered
I'm delivered

Baptized in the river (on my own)
Baptized in the river (on my own)
I wanna be delivered
(on my own, on my own)
Baptized in the river (on my own)
I wanna be delivered
Baptized in the river (on my own)
I wanna be delivered
Baptized in the river (on my own)
I wanna be delivered
I confess I'm a sinner
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered!

shud gv them a listen...really nice...:D