i always play the silent game...nvr say nething...but u noe wut...this time i mite try smth slightly different...
go ahead...tell ur lies...do wut ever the fuck u wanna do...but if u really think its abt money...or its abt sum chick...ur dead wrong...it aint abt none of dat...its abt u nvr changing...u constantly taking advantage of people...
but if u cant see that...if u cant look past ur own misconceptions...dats ur fucking problem...i pity d ppl who are falling for ur crap...i really do...
after all i've done for u...u think i'd turn my back on family for money or for sum chick?ur dead wrong...clearly u nvr knew me...n i guess i nvr knew u...
there was nth for me to blame any1 for in d 1st place...it was my mistake...my prob..my shit...although...it wasnt after i cut u out dat i learnt u had long ago gone behind my back...stabbed me in d back n betrayed my trust....used me as a piece of gossip...spilt my secrets to the world out there...so fuck u....
to any1 else who is reading this...jst keep this in mind alrite...if after all those years of backing this person up...all bailing this person out of trouble time n again...spending all dat time n effort...n yet this person so easily can betray me...so easily can spill my secrets out...how long do u think it'll be before this person does d same to u....
dats for u to decide...to those who still got my back...i thank u...i appreciate every one of u...n to those who have no idea wuts going on...dun ask...esp dun ask me...jst accept dat me n this person have gone through a parting of ways..only those who are family noe my reasonings n motifs...n only they have the right to hear it from me...to the rest...its personal n its meant for family only...as rude as it may seem...im sorry...n i apologize to any of u dat got caught up in this unwillingly...
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Xcapade and more
well...its been a loooong week i'd say....even though d weeks not over....jst came bk from xcapade on sun nite....it was absolutely amazing....the feeling of d difference between being an eb/faci n being a delegate is totally different...a whole new experience...
last year as a delegate i was struggling to stay awake during sessions...cudnt believe how the facis were doing it then....this year...on d 1st nite...i only slept for like 20 minutes...from6:10am-6:30am....thats it...n yet the next day i was still feeling energetic....probably due to the red bull lah...haha...
but overall it was a great experience...a great time...to see the juniors n noe wut was going on in their heads...to see them actively participating n having fun...it made it all worth it...:)
but there is another thing....xcapade this year marks 1 year since i actively joined AIESEC...it was exactly one year ago that i went to pd...that very same house we were in last weekend...exactly one year ago i met ppl like jim n alif n lia n didi n sakina n foo cheong n audrey....
one year gone by....n from not knowing him at all...jim has become my brother...one of my most trusted people in the world....that has been there for me through d worse of times...n vice versa...
one year gone by...one year since i met the boy alif...n today i see the man he has become...the amount he has grown...still the same old joker...but not the same at all....so much difference...so much growth...
one year gone by....n finally i understand that its not just words when they AIESEC is a life changing experience...im living it...n im seeing it in motion everyday arnd me...
to jim n alif...to one year of hardships and good times together....may we walk into that old sanctuary of ours in pd this time next year to celebrate 2 years of friendship n growth...:D
last year as a delegate i was struggling to stay awake during sessions...cudnt believe how the facis were doing it then....this year...on d 1st nite...i only slept for like 20 minutes...from6:10am-6:30am....thats it...n yet the next day i was still feeling energetic....probably due to the red bull lah...haha...
but overall it was a great experience...a great time...to see the juniors n noe wut was going on in their heads...to see them actively participating n having fun...it made it all worth it...:)
but there is another thing....xcapade this year marks 1 year since i actively joined AIESEC...it was exactly one year ago that i went to pd...that very same house we were in last weekend...exactly one year ago i met ppl like jim n alif n lia n didi n sakina n foo cheong n audrey....
one year gone by....n from not knowing him at all...jim has become my brother...one of my most trusted people in the world....that has been there for me through d worse of times...n vice versa...
one year gone by...one year since i met the boy alif...n today i see the man he has become...the amount he has grown...still the same old joker...but not the same at all....so much difference...so much growth...
one year gone by....n finally i understand that its not just words when they AIESEC is a life changing experience...im living it...n im seeing it in motion everyday arnd me...
to jim n alif...to one year of hardships and good times together....may we walk into that old sanctuary of ours in pd this time next year to celebrate 2 years of friendship n growth...:D
Saturday, September 1, 2007
My Take On Heaven and Hell
disclaimer: this is my blog..n these r my thoughts...if they offend u, im sorry...but if think leaving sum mean comment or death threat is gonna make me change my post..U R WRONG!!so piss off.
this is my take on heaven and hell...honestly think abt it...who wud b dumb enough to take on God rite?realize also that catholics refer to to lucifer as the fallen angel..not the devil...so y is this?here is what i think....
one day, God came to lucifer...he came to lucifer because he knew among all the angels in heaven, lucifer was the most loyal n devoted of them all...he knew that lucifer would do nething for God n all God had to do was ask it of him...n God knew that of all the angels, lucifer was the only who had the strength to do this upcoming task..
so God says to lucifer "Lucifer, i need to put the delinquents from earth sum where...i cant let them into heaven because it would disrupt the eternal peace promised to the good people from earth...but i cannot simply place them anywhere because they mite rise against me."
to which lucifer replies "then God, what would u have me do?"
God looks at lucifer with pain in his eyes and says "Lucifer, i noe u r loyal to me...more than any other angel here. so i ask of u this...take ur most trusted generals and plot an uprising against me..fail in that upraising. the result will be that u will be banished to a place called hell..there, u and ur generals will rule the delinquents and ensure that heaven stays peaceful. can u do this for me?"
"Yes." replies lucifer...knowing that for his loyalty, not only him, but all of his most trusted generals were being banished from heaven...
so thay plotted and carried out Gods plans....they failed in the uprising as planned and were banished to hell...there they sat n ruled for many generations...until one day....
a man came down to hell...lucifer had heard of him...God had told lucifer of this man...this man walked into hell with a group of soldiers...he did wut no one had ever done before...he challenged lucifer...n there was war...a war which lucifer lost...his generals thrown down...n this new man took the throne of hell with his overlords...n he gives himself the title of "The Devil".
then quietly, he tells lucifer "God sent me from earth...he said u have suffered enough for him. the time has come for u to return to heaven n take ur place beside him. u,the most loyal of all his angels, will be rewarded beyond ur imagination. go now n take ur generals with u. go home to where u belong. hell is mine to watch over now."
lucifer looked surprised. he did not noe wut to say. finally he said "thank u. returning to heaven is already a reward beyond my imagination, i dont need another reward." he then took his generals n returned to heaven, to God with his arms opened wide to receive them.
every few generations...God picks a mortal...he makes that mortal go through hell on earth..n he shows the mortal the path to finding his own generals....so that when the mortal crosses over, he can walk into hell n relieve the current devil of his duties. to tell the devil that it was his time to carry on his journey n go to up to heaven to take his place beside God..n then the mortal will sit on the throne of hell with his overlords and wait for his replacement to arrive...
i have seen hell on earth...i have walked through the fires...and i have found my gernerals...u noe who u r....together we have been chosen...now u noe wut awaits u...do u have the strength to follow through?do u have the strength to carry out Gods wishes?search urself n search ur soul and u will find the answer..
this is my take on heaven and hell...honestly think abt it...who wud b dumb enough to take on God rite?realize also that catholics refer to to lucifer as the fallen angel..not the devil...so y is this?here is what i think....
one day, God came to lucifer...he came to lucifer because he knew among all the angels in heaven, lucifer was the most loyal n devoted of them all...he knew that lucifer would do nething for God n all God had to do was ask it of him...n God knew that of all the angels, lucifer was the only who had the strength to do this upcoming task..
so God says to lucifer "Lucifer, i need to put the delinquents from earth sum where...i cant let them into heaven because it would disrupt the eternal peace promised to the good people from earth...but i cannot simply place them anywhere because they mite rise against me."
to which lucifer replies "then God, what would u have me do?"
God looks at lucifer with pain in his eyes and says "Lucifer, i noe u r loyal to me...more than any other angel here. so i ask of u this...take ur most trusted generals and plot an uprising against me..fail in that upraising. the result will be that u will be banished to a place called hell..there, u and ur generals will rule the delinquents and ensure that heaven stays peaceful. can u do this for me?"
"Yes." replies lucifer...knowing that for his loyalty, not only him, but all of his most trusted generals were being banished from heaven...
so thay plotted and carried out Gods plans....they failed in the uprising as planned and were banished to hell...there they sat n ruled for many generations...until one day....
a man came down to hell...lucifer had heard of him...God had told lucifer of this man...this man walked into hell with a group of soldiers...he did wut no one had ever done before...he challenged lucifer...n there was war...a war which lucifer lost...his generals thrown down...n this new man took the throne of hell with his overlords...n he gives himself the title of "The Devil".
then quietly, he tells lucifer "God sent me from earth...he said u have suffered enough for him. the time has come for u to return to heaven n take ur place beside him. u,the most loyal of all his angels, will be rewarded beyond ur imagination. go now n take ur generals with u. go home to where u belong. hell is mine to watch over now."
lucifer looked surprised. he did not noe wut to say. finally he said "thank u. returning to heaven is already a reward beyond my imagination, i dont need another reward." he then took his generals n returned to heaven, to God with his arms opened wide to receive them.
every few generations...God picks a mortal...he makes that mortal go through hell on earth..n he shows the mortal the path to finding his own generals....so that when the mortal crosses over, he can walk into hell n relieve the current devil of his duties. to tell the devil that it was his time to carry on his journey n go to up to heaven to take his place beside God..n then the mortal will sit on the throne of hell with his overlords and wait for his replacement to arrive...
i have seen hell on earth...i have walked through the fires...and i have found my gernerals...u noe who u r....together we have been chosen...now u noe wut awaits u...do u have the strength to follow through?do u have the strength to carry out Gods wishes?search urself n search ur soul and u will find the answer..
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