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read kennysia's blog and nicole's blog...it got me thinking...actually...more than those 2 got me thinking lah...

prisons are built to keep ppl in...but how do u keep ppl out?

i built a prison to keep myself in sum time ago...so as not to get hurt again...but im learning that while i keep myself locked up...ppl can still get in...n that they are doing...

live like ur going to die tmr and love like u've nvr been hurt...but how do u love like u've nvr been hurt?

if u've been hurt before...how do u really put aside all that hurt n jst jump again?i dont noe if i can do it...i dont noe if i shud...at this point...ruben...and im guessing aaron are already ready to give me really huge whacks in d back of my head...

but how do u noe when to jump and when not to jump...when to walk away n when to stand n fight?

those 2 blogs up there make it sound easy...jst sum tips here n there...but does it really work?is that really wut guys n girls think?

im still happy...but things that happen jst get me thinking...n i've always been the one that thinks to deeply into things...n it usually is nvr a good thing....

AMAN 2007

sat nite was AMAN 2007...it was AIESEC Malaysia Awards Night...n it was a black tie event...u noe wut that means rite?bingo!!all d girls were dresses to kill...n that they certainly were...d night was good n fun...n after dat we went to asian heritage row for clubbing...n then to devis for supper...we only ended up reaching home arnd 5am...it was absolutely great...n of course..pictures!!hehe

thats me in ma white suit..:)

julie,me n bee chin

the lovely hot ladies of LCUM

me n rene

me,ruben,laygeen,nadine,listya,rene,goay n jasmine

alif n lia performing

LCUMs arrival..rene is missing sumwhere

kevin,me,daryl n foo cheong

random picture

yeah...sum of d pics i aint in d white nemore cz i change after d event was over to jeans for clubbing...hehe

Woo-Hoo!!!

hehe...yes yes...m still in happy happy mode...esp since my mum is down this week...went shopping...bought loads of stuff...padini having sales...so i got 2 shirts n 2 t-shirts at 50% off...love them...seriously love them...dats d great thing abt having mum here...she takes care of everything...hehe...:D

n d reason my mum is down?its coz im an UNCLE!!!haha...1st nephew on my mum side jst came into d world not too long ago....n my cousin is down with her newborn son...so mums down to c d baby n help her out...n since im d driver...i get to c d baby too!!!n they actually let me hold him...hehe

dammit...wanted to post pics of little arman musa...but blogger acting up so i cant...oh well...next time i guess...

lets see...besides that...went to kuala selangor with rene,ruben,goay,nadine,lisum n laygeen on monday...stayed d nite there...n since tuesday was nadines bday...we got her cake...n celebrated there...again...blogger acting up...cant post pics...but u can go to youtube n look for user luciferloki84 n enjoy d videos...

overall the trip to kuala selangor was absolutely excellent...it was great bonding time...i had loads of fun...even when we were doing work it was actually fun...not boring n mundane like how it tends to get after sum time when we do it here in kl...haha

n tmr nite is AMAN...all d unis aiesecers will be getting together...gonna be fun seeing all my old long lost frens again...really looking forward to it...hehe

Tagged

Seven things to be done before my death.
1) have a family
2) buy my slk200k
3) finish my tattoos
4) get my dream job
5) own an island i can use as a getaway to die peacefully...hehe
6)
7)

Seven things I will not do even if it kills me.
1) betray family
2) ruin familys rep
3) Backstabing
4) eat worms
5) simply jump into a rship
6) no idea
7) no idea

Seven things I do when I'm away from the public.
1) if i do it away from public means i dun wan ne1 to noe...so y would i put it here??


Seven fave sentences/quotes/expressions
1) what the fuck??
2) tiu nia mah
3) huh?
4) rite...
5) im soooo gonna whoop ur ass
6) r u ok ah??
7)


Seven songs
1) how far we've come
2) bleed it out
3) everyday
4) everything
5) if ur gone
6) mungkin
7) first time


Seven things I'll make you wish you didn't do if you did.
1) betray me
2) screw my family over
3) mistaking my kindness as a weakness
4) bitch abt ppl i care abt in front of me
5) piss me off
6)
7)


Seven people to tag
1) not really into tagging ppl...so if ur interested...ur tagged..hehe
2)
3)
4)
5)
6)
7)

I'm HAPPY!!!!

yup...das rite...im happy...i dont noe when or how or why...but suddenly im back...im happy...jst plain happy...

its not to say i dun have a care in d world anymore...i still have exams to worry abt...still got aiesec work to do...but sum how...

im happy...

i no longer depend on others to make me happy...m back to dat stage where im content...n happy...

after all the heart aches n trials n tribulations...after all that being in the "family orientated" phase...by this i mean the whole "grad,get married,have kids n family" orientation....suddenly im not like that any more...suddenly i couldnt gv 2 hoots abt girls or relationships...

now its me time...its my life...my goals...n i can see them...my graduation...my professional exams...my big fat salary...my slk200k...all within reach...n it feels damn good i tell u...i cant remember the last time i was this happy....

to be honest...its better than the happiness i felt while i was in a relationship....this happiness dates abck to when i was bk in switzerland...n when i jst got back...when i knew who i was...when everything jst fit...n i accepted who i was...

so there u have it...IM BACK!!!n im HAPPY!!!seriously...pure unadulterated happiness....:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

A Very Eventful Week

stuff in d previous post aside...dat person is no longer of consequence to me...its been a very eventful week....

1st i had 3 midsem tests....back to back...tues,wed n thurs...which was crap to say d least...but i think i did pretty well...

on tues nite...we went for our EB meet...which suddenly changed location from aiesec office to food foundry...this really nice place wv really expensive food...n then rene told us dinner was on him...a form of rewards n recognition for the work we have been doing...THANKS RENE!!!:D

n then..i started talking wv one of my lecturers...cz next sem im supposed to do my industrial training...n its gonna be for 16 weeks...and since im in aiesec, there is actually a chance for me to do it overseas...so kinda in talks with my dept abt that...kinda excited!!:)

rene also mentioned to me that there will be a conference in bandung, indonesia from the 22nd-26th of november...its a Information System in AIESEC Conference...special to my particular functional area in aiesec currently...YAY!!!!:)...now i just need to convince my parents to let me go....sand,sea n shopping!!!!woo hoo!!!!:D

at the end of the week...Career Path had their bonding camp in gombak...now originally i didnt want to go...i had an invitation to go for another camp which was looking more promising with the possibility of alc...and also i have 2 tests this week...but i went to gombak anyway...to show my support for them...n i was glad...

the place was amazing...in the middle of the jungle...it was so quiet n peaceful n serene....there was a pool there...and a river from a waterfall behind the lodge...the camp schedule was very relaxing...the waterfall was amazing...going against the current...working ur way to the top...it was really amazing...getting to noe the new juniors n members...the people who were in this project...their energy...it was really amazing...

n now im bk...the camp was excellent...i feel rejuvenated...my energy level is up all the way again...i can focus properly on my coming tests...my mind is at rest...i havent felt this way in a long time...n its exactly how i need to feel facing the 2 papers i have to sit for this week...:D