For The First Time

call it an epiphany or wut ever u wan...

but for the first time in almost over a year...im thinking straight again...i got my head screwed on d right way around...

this comes from lots of late nite chats with ruben...with varun...with my sis...with tracy...

comes from a lot of whacks on d head...sum quite painful ones...sum very metaphorical whacks...dat actually hurt more than d physical ones...

but it was all worth it...

things are so much clearer now...

realizing how really wrong it would have been....

i actually sed thank u to 2 ppl...they had a good laugh..lol

realizing how in sum situation i had unwittingly compromised my own principles...n stepped over boundaries that i nvr should have....

realizing that sometimes...
...u gotta jst be who u are...do ur part...n shut out d rest...
...its best to jst not care...
...people are fake cz they are actually afraid
...people who know u best actually know whats best for u
...my sis n tracy make a lot of sense
...age and a wide worldview can make all d difference
...n most of d time there is all the difference in d world between a girl n a woman
...brothers are there for a reason...n not always good reasons...
...people change...themselves...their mindsets...their principles...their ideals
...it actually is better to have NOT loved at all than to have loved n lost
...it is better to have loved n lost than not loved at all
...it is better to surround urself with true friends than bother urself with all the drama of a relationship
...d mind should take control of d heart
...d heart should be allowed to present its case

i m moving forward...

leaving d past in d past...

i tried different roads...different paths...i have traveled the road less taken...n i have traveled the road that many travel on...

i have realized that the road less taken is better...n even better than that is making ur own road...

so for now...i m going bk to d road less traveled...lonely though it may be...there are many more adventures...n some things i jst need to do on my own...

for those who have been worried about me these past couple of weeks...dun worry...i am fine now...i have d right support as i always have had...

if i did not confide in u...do not take it too harshly...i simply only confide in family...as they have seen me through my darkest hours and know what im truly capable of...n certain aspects of me..unless u r family...u will not understand...n u will not be able to accept...thats jst d way life is...

i'll be back on my 2 feet before u noe it...u wont even realize dat i was gone...:)